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[?]Orion Ussner kidder » 🌐
@OrionKidder@mas.to

I have achieved an insight into . I need things to schedule *around* in order to have a day that isn't just me wondering what I'm supposed to do, minute to minute.

I think I "need" to take out the recycling in the morning or else I'll do nothing until lunch.

I think I "need" to go swimming in the late afternoon in order to get anything done after lunch.

This could be a really effective hack IF I can schedule and then DO those things.

Hm!

    [?]Cynni's Blog » 🌐
    @cynnisblog.wordpress.com@cynnisblog.wordpress.com

    Getting help…

    ...is hard work... ...but hopefully all worth it... As I've recently shared with you all here, I'm trying to get some help. For a long time, I've tried to make it on my own. And, after many hard struggles, I have had to concede... I had to admit to myself, and then to others, that I wasn't, and am not, able to get it all done on my own. 😔 A good online friend told me that we're not used to make it on our own, that we always need some form of support. But, getting that support as a NeuroSpicy 🌶️ person, it's even more challenging (and maybe also more important). […] [SENSITIVE CONTENT]

    …is hard work…

    …but hopefully all worth it…

    As I’ve recently shared with you all here, I’m trying to get some help. For a long time, I’ve tried to make it on my own. And, after many hard struggles, I have had to concede… I had to admit to myself, and then to others, that I wasn’t, and am not, able to get it all done on my own. 😔 A good online friend told me that we’re not used to make it on our own, that we always need some form of support. But, getting that support as a NeuroSpicy 🌶️ person, it’s even more challenging (and maybe also more important).

    And, what my friend wrote to me, he was so right. Getting specialized support when dealing with different diagnosis and struggles, is very hard. There are support options for the “basic things”, like there is support for learning to deal with trauma. And there is some sort of support of learning to cope best with a neurodivergeant brain. But! Struggling with CPTSD, while being ND, that’s a whole different thing! So, it needs even more specialized support. Which means it’s a lot harder to obtain. Which is what I am trying to do. But I have to say, I was hoping for more professional support, because the GP knows I struggle with communication, and I can’t really do phone calls, but now I have to reach out to a place that could maybe help me (they’re not even sure on that), and I have to find out if they could help me… So yeah, that’s not something I’m good at, and could also need help with…

    Which I am also working on. A dear friend helped me out by calling to the city’s support department, as they could only be reached by phone. I have set up an introduction appointment with someone from that department by email. And, going from there, hopefully they can find me a buddy. Someone to support me every now and then with making phone calls, dealing with post/mail, and hopefully I can ask them about some small chores as well…

    It’s been hard for me to accept that I should get over my pride, and that I needed to start reaching out for help. But, in the end, I did it. Part of me does feel bummed that it’s so hard to get the help you need… When you’re struggling already, when you’re that far down that you even accept and acknowledge that asking for help is a necessity, it should be easier to then obtain the help… When you’re already so low, when you’re scared of slipping off even further, you should not need to use the bit of energy you have left to find the help you so desperately need. You should start to receive the help from the moment you ask, they should support you with acquiring that much needed help. I know that health care is under pressure. But part of me wonders, if it would be better of people would get the support from the moment they ask. Now, it’s so hard to actually get the help you need, it’s so easy to slip down even further, making it impossible for you to actually get that help… If that makes sense… 🤔

    But, I am working on it. And I hope that I will be successful, in the end. I also hope that, if I should be able to acquire that help, that it will help me to get my things back on track again… That life will become a bit easier to deal with, so that I’ll have more spoons left to make some real progress again. 😊

    It’s a long road, it’s challenging, and sometimes (almost) too difficult to deal with… But, as I said/wrote, I really hope that I will be successful in the end. And that it will be what I needed to start feeling better again… Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 🍀.

    To be continued…

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    Please be wise and stay safe! I hope to see you back real soon again, feel free to drop in anytime! Wishing you all the best. With love, Cynni 🌹

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    I am living on a disability income and don’t generate an income with my blog. If you would like to support me and my work, I’d greatly appreciate it. Every bit helps me tremendously. For more information and a donation link, please check out https://www.ko-fi.com/PlaystationPixy

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    Thanks ever so much 💜

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    Alt...A cozy illustrated scene, with a vintage-textured border added by Pixlr and AddText. A relaxed character with short rainbow hair, large glittery wings, and glasses lies on a couch in purple camouflage pajamas and fluffy sheep slippers, smiling gently. The wall behind features framed photos of the character and a dog. On a sparkling coffee table in the foreground are a laptop, a tablet, a phone, a can of sugar-free energy drink, and four colorful lit candles. Overlaid text in a purple-to-teal gradient reads 'Getting help...'

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    [?]Littles 😈 Verified by the Boss » 🌐
    @hyperthea@mastodon.world

    I have 80HD

    The meds are working great tho.

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      [?]𝙉𝙤𝙖𝙝 𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙨 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙛 » 🌐
      @monkeyninja@10base2.dev

      You ever pause and think about how the label “high-functioning” that gets applied to , , , and other folks is just sotto voce, “It’s way harder for you to do certain things than it is for other people and you’re pretty fantastic at keeping that struggle completely invisible to outside scrutiny.”

      Some days I’m thankful for masking. Other days I wish I could just shine a spotlight and say, “See? I’m expending triathlon level energy just to accomplish what you can at a brisk walk.”

      It’s a spectrum. Just because you’re not at the far point of that spectrum doesn’t mean that everything is sunshine, lemon drops, and rainbows.

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        [?]Lincoln Russell » 🌐
        @linc@phpc.social

        "so linc how's your meditat-"

        do not.

        "was this just an detou-"

        i swear to god.

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          [?]⠠⠵ avuko » 🌐
          @avuko@infosec.exchange

          Apparently Gen Z can identify AI generated images and will scroll past them. I personally have a physical reaction to them (not a pleasant one), and now I'm wondering about the crowd.

          hachyderm.io/@thomasfuchs/1162

          Gen Z & ND, can tell:0
          Gen Z & ND, can't tell:0
          Not Gen Z & ND, can tell:0
          Not Gen Z & ND, can't tell:0
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            [?]Caria Giovanni - Harpocrates » 🌐
            @Harpocrates@infosec.exchange

            25% of inmates meet ADHD criteria. 9% autism.
            85% unemployment for autistic graduates.
            This is not a dangerous population. It's a gifted one — excluded, then found in the wrong place.
            New article: the exclusion pipeline from school to cybercrime, and why AI may be the compensatory factor that changes the equation.
            cariagiovannib.wordpress.com/2

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              [?]Marc » 🌐
              @marlinz@sueden.social

              How do I love when people tell me " just relax dude" "dude chill" "dude cmon be nice"

              Matr, I have ADHD, I don't relax neither do I chill

              I simply shutdown like an overheated laptop

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                [?]Scar :Fire_Pansexual: [He/him they/them] » 🌐
                @Azzura@lgbtqia.space

                Machine learning: constant false positives from face recognition.
                ADHD: constant false negatives from face recognition.

                  [?]I. L. Villiam » 🌐
                  @Drude@literatur.social

                  Ich denke, es sollte Geburtsvorbereitungskurse für neurodivergente Leute geben.

                  Konzipiert das jemand? Gibt es das schon irgendwo?

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                    [?]Lorry » 🌐
                    @lorry@infosec.exchange

                    I am happy with this DECSystem-10 MUD system for now; it's been a 35-year task.

                    If anyone is bored enough to be curious!

                    31 January 1991: Essex University's DECSystem-10 closes, meaning that MIST and ROCK, and the dodgy version of MUD we had on there, had to close. I had a mostly working VMS system that would run it with some extra programming, but I'd already sent out AberMUD to Vijay, and he'd sent it out to the world, and TinyMUDs were becoming common. MIST was losing its captive audience, and it needed that level of addiction and co-dependence to run, so I decided to let it die in its prime, rather than become a sad old relic that nobody played.

                    Sometime in 2004/2005 and the next 20 years: I decided to build a TOPS-10 system on a VMS machine and install MIST/MUD and ROCK. Got quite a long way, and then discovered there was no BCPL compiler existing anywhere in the known world. A few years later, Richard Bartle told me that Paul Allen (I think) had found one. So this became possible, and Quentin (dot-co-dot-uk) took a great stab at it with some really old code, and Viktor Toth had BL running, so I figured that was enough. Sometime in this period, Bletchley Park got something that looked like a PDP-10, and they suggested that I go and put MUD onto it for the museum. It wasn't a PDP-10, but I did look into putting it onto a VAX for a while, but the management of Bletchley, as it turned into The National Museum of Computing (TNMOC), was getting more corporate and boring, so I gave up bothering.

                    19th Feb to 22nd Feb, 2026: I decided to build a PRIMOS machine on a Simh emulator for no apparent reason. It went fairly smoothly, so I wondered again about a DEC-10. I was missing TOPS-10 anyway, so why not? Proof of concept, setting up some test systems, seeing where TOPS-10 emulators were at these days and seeing how far Quentin had really got and how much extra work was needed. Realised I am going to have to start from scratch, mostly, using a prebuilt Steuben distro of TOPS-10 7.03 as the base.

                    Took a couple of weeks off to ponder whether the rest was worth it, but decided my $200 a month ChatGPT Pro subscription may as well pay for itself with background research, so I decided to go ahead.

                    9th March 9 to 18th March, 2026: A long spring, and I mostly got it all working. 92 hours of concentrated swearing and about 15 hours of destroying the planet with GPT Deep Research mode later, after at least 2 false starts and complete wipes. I got a system I am relatively happy with. Somewhere in there is about 4 hours of relearning TECO and fighting with getting ROCK working on code it was never meant to work on. There's still more to do, but that's just maintenance now.

                    BUT I FOUND ROCK! I thought it was lost forever. Somehow, that's my major victory in all this. Building the setup was hard, tedious, and very frustrating work. It probably did need somebody who knew a lot about both DEC and Unix systems management, and the MUD engine, to guide it, but it was still mostly a matter of putting together things that already existed and forcing them to work together. ROCK, though, I genuinely thought was 100% lost.

                    It's taken a hundred plus concentrated hours, two new dedicated hosts, a small town's water supply, and probably a few megawatts of power in the background. But this is the final re-creation of the systems I closed at the start of the 1990s.

                    MIST (and MUD and ROCK) will still probably end up as relics that nobody properly plays, but this project is not pretending to be anything other than an interesting throwback and museum piece now, which, 35 years after I closed it down, seems a fitting end. It also means I can resurrect Duncan Rogerson's arch-wizard, and that seems right, somehow. I will leave it up and running now.

                    Old Man Yells At Cloud (Abe Simpson shaking his fist at the world)

                    Alt...Old Man Yells At Cloud (Abe Simpson shaking his fist at the world)

                    A 1970 brochure showing the typical layout of a DECSystem 10. Showing 17 large cabinets, and a console. There's no chair or hatstand in here to throw the tape rings at, it doesn't seem realistic.

                    Alt...A 1970 brochure showing the typical layout of a DECSystem 10. Showing 17 large cabinets, and a console. There's no chair or hatstand in here to throw the tape rings at, it doesn't seem realistic.

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                      [?]Owl Eyes » 🌐
                      @d1@autistics.life

                      I've started running my own Luanti/Voxelibre server on a Raspberry Pi. I can join the server from my laptop, but after walking around, alas, there are no other players. I'm considering making it publicly accessible, so more players can join.
                      **Dear @ActuallyAutistic people in North America, would you be interested in joining a casual game of ** (but it's /#Voxelibre; is very similar, and it's free/#OpenSource, and runs even on low-spec hardware)? Note: the server is in Canada, it's in where you'll get low-enough latency.
                      The server would be themed to be geared to those with an actual diagnosis of (or you're confident you have it, but it's not formally diagnosed). and people are also welcome!!
                      I promise I won't track you in any way! No ads, no spam, no viruses, no nothing like that.

                      Yes, please:0
                      No, thanks:0

                        [?]Marc » 🌐
                        @marlinz@sueden.social

                        ADHD meant constantly fighting for structure.

                        Every productivity tool forced me into its boxes, rigid folders, fixed categories.

                        Emacs Org Mode changed the game.

                        I don't adapt to the tool; the tool adapts to me. No filing anxiety, just tags and capture.

                        Finally, a system that works like my brain, so far

                          [?]Looking for explanations… » 🌐
                          @Susan60@aus.social

                          At different times in my life I have had to deal with severe depression (probably autistic burnout & overwhelm after dealing with bereavements & other traumas a) &, to a lesser degree, anxiety. Which is probably pretty normal for many/most autistic &/or ADHD folks.

                          Like many people, I’ve tried various relaxation techniques & approaches over the years, but I’ve also been a bit ambivalent about them. Obviously they can help some people sometimes to deal with short term situations, but I often felt suspicious of wellness gurus wearing pasted on beatific smiles. (Probably an unconscious reaction against yet more masking!)

                          This morning, in an attempt to do yet more cat proofing (George proofing) of our backyard, I did a bit of hammering. It was tough. I really had to wield that hammer! And failed. (Partner used self tapping screws later.) But trying to bash those nails in was really therapeutic!

                          My back has been bothering me, which had limited my exercise which doesn’t help. The problem is that when I am feeling good (or not noticing when somethings not quite right), I sometimes overdo it.

                          It’s all about balance and moderation, which is just a bit of a challenge for a lot of us neurodivergent folk..,




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                            [?]Nate [he/him/his] » 🌐
                            @nolsen311@infosec.exchange

                            RE: cosocial.ca/@evan/116242235317

                            Seeing my own boost on this reminded me.

                            I'm sure I saw a blurb somewhere about this, but didn't bother to click at the time. Bc of course I'm interested in who Banksy is... But I'm also super interested in someone that can keep their opsec. Respect.

                            Anyway, didn't click and was so not really interested that I'd forgotten until just now.

                            Banksy is kinda like Bigfoot. Yeah it'd be neat to know, but some mysteries don't need an answer.

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                            [?]Evan Prodromou » 🌐
                            @evan@cosocial.ca

                            WE DON'T WANT TO KNOW BANKSY'S IDENTITY

                            STOP INVESTIGATING BANKSY FFS

                            INVESTIGATE LITERALLY EVERYTHING ELSE

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                              [?]Intel_Log » 🌐
                              @intelgraphy@infosec.exchange

                              I crave social validation and companionship, yet I’m afraid of people. My parents never gave me the love and nurturing I needed to survive in this harsh world.
                              I still feel discontent no matter how peaceful my daily life is. Is because I crave the social connection I’ve been long deprived off for decades?

                                [?]Marc » 🌐
                                @marlinz@sueden.social

                                'm genuinely excited how Emacs/Org-mode will help me organize with my ADHD.

                                I'm thrilled right now it triggers dopamine, something I've been missing.

                                Why?

                                When I need to do something, my brain actually engages: I remember shortcuts, ensure proper tags.

                                My mind isn't busy storing/retrieving tasks.

                                I've built my own system since Sunday, and it's working perfectly so far. If this continues, I'll be happy.

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                                  [?]Marc » 🌐
                                  @marlinz@sueden.social

                                  Still diving into Emacs Org Mode

                                  it's incredibly powerful, but a massive adjustment.

                                  The real challenge isn't learning the tool, but developing proper use cases and workflows that break free from traditional file based thinking.

                                  Need to shift -> where to store -> how to organize.

                                  this is a incredible journey for my ADHD brain, and my actual stress situation. It is a kind of self destroying move, but the hope to have found the solution is strong.

                                    [?]Reed [they/them] » 🌐
                                    @reed@social.lol

                                    So. I've been participating in a weekly group discussion centered around self-discovery and healing, and I'm slowly realizing I may be AuDHD. I never considered it before, because trauma has a lot of symptoms that overlap.

                                    Are there others out there who have come to these realizations late in life? How have you thought about it or reconciled it with the past?

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                                      [?]⠠⠵ avuko » 🌐
                                      @avuko@infosec.exchange

                                      autistics@fedigroups.social @actuallyadhd

                                      I wanted to express gratitude to all of you on here for sharing your lived experience, struggles and all.

                                      I’ve learned more about myself through your sharing than I ever would have doing this by myself or with “official support”.

                                      With a special shoutout to people from the side of our tribe, giving me invaluable, refreshing—and sometimes confronting—insights.

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                                        [?]Woozle Hypertwin [feminine] » 🌐
                                        @woozle@toot.cat

                                        I just figured out a lovely little brainmine / self-gaslighting that I've been doing.

                                        You know how in order to get yourself to do something difficult, ADHD means you have to find a way to feel enthusiastic about it, right?

                                        Extensive childhood training, however, will always remind me that if I feel like I want to do something, it's "playing", and I really should be doing my work (i.e. something else).

                                        Therefore: by the time I psych myself into doing something I don't really want to do, I feel guilty and anxious about it because I should really be doing something else.

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                                          [?]Marc » 🌐
                                          @marlinz@sueden.social

                                          l Post 4: The ADHD Safety Net
                                          A critical feature is the "Discipline Loop":
                                          The system monitors the "Ingest" buffer. If it exceeds a certain threshold, the system triggers a nudge (or a soft lockout) upon login. This forces me to complete "Phase 2" before the pile becomes overwhelming. Automation meets psychology. 4/n

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